1 00:00:11,971 --> 00:00:13,681 Previously on The Summer I Turned Pretty… 2 00:00:13,764 --> 00:00:15,891 I told everyone that I applied to Finch 3 00:00:15,975 --> 00:00:17,351 because it was a good school, 4 00:00:17,435 --> 00:00:20,229 but truest of all was that I just wanted to be near him. 5 00:00:20,312 --> 00:00:22,106 Now here we are. 6 00:00:22,189 --> 00:00:24,734 We are gonna do this for the rest of our lives. 7 00:00:24,817 --> 00:00:27,111 - I got off the wait list for study abroad. - Paris? 8 00:00:27,194 --> 00:00:28,738 Have you and Conrad started your speech 9 00:00:28,821 --> 00:00:30,656 for the dedication ceremony? 10 00:00:30,740 --> 00:00:32,783 Half of Cousins is coming to see Susannah's memorial garden. 11 00:00:32,867 --> 00:00:35,286 I went to go get my cap and gown and my name wasn't on the list. 12 00:00:35,369 --> 00:00:36,355 I'm not graduating. 13 00:00:36,370 --> 00:00:37,580 We keep coming back to each other. 14 00:00:37,663 --> 00:00:40,207 - It feels like it's never really over. - I got that 15 00:00:40,291 --> 00:00:42,293 - summer clinic job. - Have you ever been in love? 16 00:00:42,376 --> 00:00:44,253 - Once. - So, what was her name? 17 00:00:44,336 --> 00:00:45,322 Belly. 18 00:00:45,337 --> 00:00:46,422 Wait, like, your brother's girlfriend? 19 00:00:46,505 --> 00:00:48,591 Hey, Jere. Look, I am not 20 00:00:48,674 --> 00:00:50,760 gonna be able to make the dedication. 21 00:00:50,843 --> 00:00:53,179 Well, what happens in Cabo stays in Cabo. 22 00:00:53,262 --> 00:00:54,388 Did you hook up 23 00:00:54,472 --> 00:00:56,307 - with Lacie Barone during spring break? - Oh, shit. 24 00:00:56,390 --> 00:00:59,018 It happened when we were on a break. It didn't mean anything to me. 25 00:00:59,101 --> 00:01:00,561 - It means something to me. - I swear to you… 26 00:01:00,644 --> 00:01:02,021 You ruined everything. 27 00:01:15,785 --> 00:01:18,788 ♪ Lacy, oh, Lacy ♪ 28 00:01:18,871 --> 00:01:20,164 ♪ Skin like… 29 00:01:20,247 --> 00:01:22,792 Bells, can we go on a coffee run? 30 00:01:22,875 --> 00:01:25,419 I thought you said you had to get at least a B 31 00:01:25,503 --> 00:01:27,505 on your Media Ethics midterm 32 00:01:27,588 --> 00:01:30,591 or you were so screwed. 33 00:01:30,674 --> 00:01:32,927 Fine. You are no fun. 34 00:01:33,010 --> 00:01:35,638 - Mm. - Mm. 35 00:01:35,721 --> 00:01:37,181 ♪ Ever tell you that… 36 00:01:37,264 --> 00:01:39,183 Wait, what's this? 37 00:01:39,266 --> 00:01:42,269 Important flight update for Cabo? 38 00:01:42,353 --> 00:01:44,021 Since when are you going to Cabo? 39 00:01:44,104 --> 00:01:47,316 Yeah, I-I told you about the last-minute flight I booked. 40 00:01:47,399 --> 00:01:50,528 Uh, I think I would have remembered you going to Mexico. 41 00:01:50,611 --> 00:01:52,446 Oh, well, Bells, this is my last spring break, 42 00:01:52,530 --> 00:01:54,281 and you're gonna be in Philly, so… 43 00:01:54,365 --> 00:01:57,034 Yeah, but we said we might meet up in Cousins. 44 00:01:57,117 --> 00:01:59,078 And I thought you were trying to spend more time with your dad. 45 00:01:59,161 --> 00:02:01,914 Okay, don't try to guilt-trip me about my dad. 46 00:02:01,997 --> 00:02:04,124 I just saw him last weekend. 47 00:02:04,208 --> 00:02:06,043 Did something happen with you guys? 48 00:02:06,126 --> 00:02:08,462 You've been kind of moody since then. 49 00:02:09,505 --> 00:02:11,799 Something worse than visiting my dead mom's grave? 50 00:02:11,882 --> 00:02:14,009 - No. - Hey, okay, that's… 51 00:02:14,093 --> 00:02:18,639 That' not fair. I just… I think you're being a little bit selfish. 52 00:02:18,722 --> 00:02:21,600 Okay, sorry. Can you just stop riding me? 53 00:02:21,684 --> 00:02:23,352 If you want to come to Cabo, then just come. 54 00:02:23,435 --> 00:02:25,855 No, I don't want to crash your boys' trip. 55 00:02:25,938 --> 00:02:27,815 It's not just boys. The sororities are going, too. 56 00:02:27,898 --> 00:02:31,151 Oh, so, girls were invited, just not girlfriends? Cool. 57 00:02:31,235 --> 00:02:34,321 Look, I promise I'm not interested in whatever wet T-shirt contest 58 00:02:34,405 --> 00:02:35,906 or whatever it is that you're picturing. 59 00:02:35,990 --> 00:02:37,950 - It's not that. - Then what is it? 60 00:02:38,033 --> 00:02:39,451 What is wrong with you right now? 61 00:02:39,535 --> 00:02:41,620 You're the one who didn't even tell me that you're leaving the country. 62 00:02:41,704 --> 00:02:43,497 Yeah, because you hate anything having to do with frats. 63 00:02:43,581 --> 00:02:44,999 When did I ever say that? 64 00:02:45,082 --> 00:02:47,293 You don't have to. I can feel you judging us. 65 00:02:47,376 --> 00:02:49,587 Sorry if I'm a dumbass who's probably gonna bomb his midterm. 66 00:02:49,670 --> 00:02:52,089 Sorry if I want to have a little fun at spring break and I'm sorry 67 00:02:52,172 --> 00:02:54,925 that I'm not some straight-A overachiever going to med school 68 00:02:55,009 --> 00:02:56,844 - like Conrad. - Oh, my God, what? 69 00:02:56,927 --> 00:02:59,430 Please… please don't put your inferiority complex 70 00:02:59,513 --> 00:03:02,057 - on me. - I wonder where that came from. 71 00:03:02,141 --> 00:03:04,268 Well, didn't start with me, so maybe 72 00:03:04,351 --> 00:03:06,520 - look at your dad. - Wow. 73 00:03:06,604 --> 00:03:09,189 Well, if you think I'm so stupid and selfish, then why are you even with me? 74 00:03:09,273 --> 00:03:11,525 Fuck it. I won't waste your time. 75 00:03:11,609 --> 00:03:13,319 You're being ridiculous right now. 76 00:03:13,402 --> 00:03:15,613 You think everything I do is ridiculous and I'm sick of it, 77 00:03:15,696 --> 00:03:16,989 so let's just end it. 78 00:03:17,072 --> 00:03:18,616 - Are you serious? - Yes. 79 00:03:18,699 --> 00:03:21,035 - I'm serious. - Okay, fine, if that's how you feel. 80 00:03:21,118 --> 00:03:22,828 - It is. - Great, okay, awesome. Bye. 81 00:03:22,912 --> 00:03:24,121 Bye. 82 00:03:25,831 --> 00:03:27,958 I went home for spring break 83 00:03:28,042 --> 00:03:30,294 and we still hadn't talked. 84 00:03:32,713 --> 00:03:35,549 I can't believe it's been five days and he still hasn't texted me. 85 00:03:35,633 --> 00:03:38,677 Haven't you also not texted him? 86 00:03:38,761 --> 00:03:41,764 Yeah, but he's the one who picked the fight out of nowhere. 87 00:03:41,847 --> 00:03:45,059 Why don't you just come with me to New York for a couple of days? 88 00:03:45,142 --> 00:03:48,437 We can, like, run around the city after I crush my interview. 89 00:03:48,520 --> 00:03:51,649 - I'm too depressed. - Stop looking at Instagram. 90 00:03:51,732 --> 00:03:53,859 I just still don't even know what the hell happened. 91 00:03:53,943 --> 00:03:55,694 Let's see. 92 00:03:55,778 --> 00:03:57,780 Okay, I'm heading out. 93 00:03:57,863 --> 00:03:59,198 Bye, Mom. 94 00:03:59,281 --> 00:04:01,909 Well, the good news is he looks emotionally destroyed. 95 00:04:01,992 --> 00:04:04,954 I mean, I knew he was down about his grades, but I… 96 00:04:05,037 --> 00:04:06,622 Just stop obsessing. 97 00:04:06,705 --> 00:04:08,916 You want to know what's going on, why don't you ask him? 98 00:04:08,999 --> 00:04:11,585 - Yeah, but he's the one… - Just talk to him when he gets back. 99 00:04:11,669 --> 00:04:14,838 Guys are like dogs. They hide when they've screwed up. 100 00:04:14,922 --> 00:04:18,133 And even the world's best boyfriend is gonna fuck up sometimes. 101 00:04:18,217 --> 00:04:20,970 You know he feels bad about it. Like, it's Jere. 102 00:04:21,053 --> 00:04:24,181 You're his oxygen. He can't breathe without you. 103 00:04:29,561 --> 00:04:31,855 I really thought Taylor was right. 104 00:04:31,939 --> 00:04:34,483 So when we got back to school, 105 00:04:34,566 --> 00:04:36,110 I went to see him. 106 00:04:36,193 --> 00:04:39,780 Were you really not gonna come find me? I mean, you pick a fight, 107 00:04:39,863 --> 00:04:41,991 walk out the door and I don't hear from you for a week? 108 00:04:42,074 --> 00:04:43,283 I'm a total asshole, Belly. 109 00:04:43,367 --> 00:04:46,286 I fucked up and I fucked up really bad. 110 00:04:46,370 --> 00:04:47,663 Hey. No, it's-it's okay. 111 00:04:50,290 --> 00:04:52,042 No. 112 00:04:52,126 --> 00:04:54,378 No, it's not. I have… I had a shitty week 113 00:04:54,461 --> 00:04:56,380 and I took it out on you. 114 00:04:56,463 --> 00:04:58,757 I'm just sorry… I'm sorry, Belly. 115 00:04:58,841 --> 00:05:00,843 Look, I mean… 116 00:05:00,926 --> 00:05:02,761 we had a fight. 117 00:05:02,845 --> 00:05:04,596 It's not the end of the world. 118 00:05:06,890 --> 00:05:08,767 Does this mean… 119 00:05:08,851 --> 00:05:10,853 does this mean you want to get back together? 120 00:05:12,187 --> 00:05:15,024 We never stopped being together. 121 00:05:19,069 --> 00:05:20,612 Belly, 122 00:05:20,696 --> 00:05:22,698 when I was in Cabo… 123 00:05:23,991 --> 00:05:25,242 I-I thought… 124 00:05:25,325 --> 00:05:26,827 - Hey. - I wish I would've… 125 00:05:33,667 --> 00:05:36,920 I just can't believe I almost lost you over something so stupid. 126 00:05:39,423 --> 00:05:41,216 You could never lose me. 127 00:05:46,430 --> 00:05:47,639 Uh… 128 00:05:49,516 --> 00:05:50,642 Uh… 129 00:05:50,726 --> 00:05:52,644 I got you this. 130 00:05:52,728 --> 00:05:54,980 I was just on the beach and I was just thinking about you. 131 00:05:55,064 --> 00:05:57,733 I didn't even know if we would ever talk again, but… 132 00:05:57,816 --> 00:05:58,859 But it's really stupid 133 00:05:58,942 --> 00:06:00,360 - and you don't have to wear it, but… - No. 134 00:06:01,403 --> 00:06:02,905 I love it. 135 00:06:05,157 --> 00:06:06,784 I love you. 136 00:06:22,841 --> 00:06:24,843 Fucking worthless. 137 00:06:50,536 --> 00:06:51,912 Taylor's here. 138 00:06:51,995 --> 00:06:54,373 - I'm asleep. - Got it. 139 00:06:59,211 --> 00:07:01,964 - She's asleep. - Okay, I just want to talk to her. 140 00:07:02,047 --> 00:07:03,465 I think she should rest right now. 141 00:07:03,549 --> 00:07:06,009 Okay, fine. 142 00:07:06,093 --> 00:07:09,680 This is a breakfast burrito. Extra crispy bacon, the way she likes it. 143 00:07:09,763 --> 00:07:12,558 - Just make sure she eats something. - Okay. 144 00:07:13,600 --> 00:07:14,893 Bye. 145 00:07:20,149 --> 00:07:24,486 Belly, I-I swear, I-I obviously had no idea about Lacie. 146 00:07:24,570 --> 00:07:26,029 You know I would have killed them both for you. 147 00:07:26,113 --> 00:07:27,906 Okay? Please, just call me back. 148 00:07:27,990 --> 00:07:29,616 Like, just call me back. 149 00:07:30,617 --> 00:07:31,994 - Oh, no. I wouldn't - Taylor… 150 00:07:32,077 --> 00:07:33,745 get any closer unless you want your balls cut off. 151 00:07:33,829 --> 00:07:35,455 - Please, just tell me how she is. - I don't know. 152 00:07:35,539 --> 00:07:39,042 She won't talk to me, either. Your side chick is in my sorority, 153 00:07:39,126 --> 00:07:41,420 so now I'm just, like, guilty by association. 154 00:07:41,503 --> 00:07:42,504 Taylor, please hear me out. 155 00:07:42,588 --> 00:07:43,839 No, I have always been on your side. 156 00:07:43,922 --> 00:07:45,591 I was the freaking CEO of Team Jeremiah. 157 00:07:45,674 --> 00:07:48,177 Now to find out that you're this scummy little fucking hot tub cheater… 158 00:07:48,260 --> 00:07:50,554 - it-it's insane. - I didn't cheat, we were on a break. 159 00:07:50,637 --> 00:07:52,431 No, that's bullshit. 160 00:07:52,514 --> 00:07:55,142 You're not getting off on this, like, technicality. 161 00:07:55,225 --> 00:07:58,061 You were broken up for all of two seconds, Jeremiah. 162 00:07:58,145 --> 00:08:01,064 And then you got her this, like, cheap-ass puka shell bracelet to make it up to her. 163 00:08:01,148 --> 00:08:03,817 Like, what are you doing? What are you thinking? 164 00:08:03,901 --> 00:08:05,903 What, you're the expert on cheating now, huh? 165 00:08:05,986 --> 00:08:08,155 - Excuse me? - You heard me. 166 00:08:08,238 --> 00:08:09,239 How are Davis and Mia? 167 00:08:09,323 --> 00:08:11,783 Don't turn it around on me. 168 00:08:11,867 --> 00:08:15,329 You were supposed to be the ideal. You were supposed to deserve her. 169 00:08:15,412 --> 00:08:18,707 But you don't, and th… you probably never did. 170 00:08:20,667 --> 00:08:22,252 Can you get out of here? 171 00:08:33,013 --> 00:08:35,265 Hey, this is Taylor. Leave a message. 172 00:08:37,684 --> 00:08:40,771 Adam called you in for this meeting, too, huh? 173 00:08:40,854 --> 00:08:42,314 Yep. Yeah. 174 00:08:42,397 --> 00:08:44,524 Fun way to spend a Sunday. Hmm? 175 00:08:44,608 --> 00:08:46,610 Sitting in the background while the grown-ups talk. 176 00:08:46,693 --> 00:08:49,988 Did you, uh, get to the dossier I sent you on Friday? 177 00:08:50,072 --> 00:08:53,325 Yep. Yep, yep, yeah, yeah. 178 00:08:53,408 --> 00:08:55,285 So, you saw it's StarcadeX? 179 00:08:56,328 --> 00:08:57,454 StarcadeX… 180 00:08:57,537 --> 00:08:59,414 - Like-like, the gaming start-up? - Oh, my God, 181 00:08:59,498 --> 00:09:02,459 I knew you were a gamer. Jesus, be a bigger nerd cliché, please. 182 00:09:02,542 --> 00:09:04,253 Okay, no, no. Relax. 183 00:09:04,336 --> 00:09:05,921 All right? I used to program that shit. 184 00:09:06,004 --> 00:09:07,673 Computer engineering at Princeton. 185 00:09:07,756 --> 00:09:08,882 - Right. - Remember? 186 00:09:08,966 --> 00:09:10,300 Yes, how could I forget? 187 00:09:10,384 --> 00:09:12,678 It is in your email signature. 188 00:09:12,761 --> 00:09:15,180 - Mm. - Look, just do me a favor, all right? 189 00:09:15,264 --> 00:09:16,765 Read the dossier, 190 00:09:16,848 --> 00:09:19,142 then call your girlfriend. 191 00:09:19,226 --> 00:09:22,729 - Okay? - Yeah. Well, I actually, um… 192 00:09:22,813 --> 00:09:24,481 I actually broke up with my girlfriend. 193 00:09:24,564 --> 00:09:27,192 That was, uh, that was my-my ex. 194 00:09:27,276 --> 00:09:28,527 Well, ex-ex? 195 00:09:28,610 --> 00:09:30,362 - Um… - Oh, my God. No, no, no. Stop immediately. 196 00:09:30,445 --> 00:09:32,614 No. I'm n… No personal stuff. 197 00:09:32,698 --> 00:09:36,827 All right? I'm not the coworker who's gonna be invested in your little dramas. 198 00:09:36,910 --> 00:09:38,578 I don't care. 199 00:09:38,662 --> 00:09:40,956 Yeah. 200 00:09:41,039 --> 00:09:43,250 All right, um… 201 00:09:43,333 --> 00:09:44,793 - StarcadeX? - Every VC shop 202 00:09:44,876 --> 00:09:46,336 is gonna try to move on this company, all right? 203 00:09:46,420 --> 00:09:48,171 So we really need to be on the ball with this. 204 00:09:48,255 --> 00:09:50,048 Copy. Copy. Got you. 205 00:09:50,132 --> 00:09:51,675 Thank you. 206 00:10:32,257 --> 00:10:34,176 You just have to make it to the library. 207 00:10:34,259 --> 00:10:36,803 One thing at a time. 208 00:10:36,887 --> 00:10:39,014 Yeah, but every "thing…" 209 00:10:39,097 --> 00:10:41,224 leads to him. 210 00:10:41,308 --> 00:10:43,894 Like, I-I can't just study, 211 00:10:43,977 --> 00:10:47,397 I also have to call and quit my summer job, 212 00:10:47,481 --> 00:10:50,650 because, obviously, I'm not gonna be in Cousins, 213 00:10:50,734 --> 00:10:53,362 because Jeremiah. 214 00:10:53,445 --> 00:10:55,280 And then I have to figure out how to tell my mom 215 00:10:55,364 --> 00:10:58,742 that I can't bring myself to go to Susannah's memorial 216 00:10:58,825 --> 00:11:00,660 because, again, Jeremiah. 217 00:11:02,287 --> 00:11:04,289 And I might never even go to the summer house again 218 00:11:04,373 --> 00:11:05,916 - because of fucking Jeremiah. - So, 219 00:11:05,999 --> 00:11:07,709 okay, one thing at a time's not gonna work for you. 220 00:11:07,793 --> 00:11:10,545 No. No, nothing's gonna work, because everything is… 221 00:11:12,464 --> 00:11:14,091 Oh, my God. 222 00:11:17,260 --> 00:11:19,846 Hey, you're gonna be okay. 223 00:11:20,889 --> 00:11:22,599 I'll meet you after study group. 224 00:11:22,682 --> 00:11:25,102 It's not just Lacie I can't avoid. 225 00:11:25,185 --> 00:11:27,312 I see Jeremiah everywhere. 226 00:11:27,396 --> 00:11:31,024 ♪ Hung all my clothes in the closet you made… 227 00:11:31,108 --> 00:11:33,652 Even when he isn't really there. 228 00:11:33,735 --> 00:11:35,779 ♪ I send them your way ♪ 229 00:11:35,862 --> 00:11:37,823 ♪ Hoping life brings you no ♪ 230 00:11:37,906 --> 00:11:40,200 ♪ new pain ♪ 231 00:11:40,283 --> 00:11:44,246 ♪ I rearrange my memories ♪ 232 00:11:44,329 --> 00:11:47,541 ♪ I try to rewrite our life ♪ 233 00:11:47,624 --> 00:11:49,334 ♪ But no matter ♪ 234 00:11:49,418 --> 00:11:52,087 ♪ how I ♪ 235 00:11:52,170 --> 00:11:54,714 ♪ try to ♪ 236 00:11:54,798 --> 00:11:57,092 ♪ and no matter ♪ 237 00:11:57,175 --> 00:11:59,010 ♪ how I ♪ 238 00:11:59,094 --> 00:12:02,264 ♪ want to ♪ 239 00:12:02,347 --> 00:12:05,600 ♪ and no matter how easy ♪ 240 00:12:05,684 --> 00:12:09,771 ♪ things could be if I did ♪ 241 00:12:09,855 --> 00:12:12,357 ♪ and no matter how guilty ♪ 242 00:12:12,441 --> 00:12:15,944 ♪ I still feel saying it ♪ 243 00:12:16,027 --> 00:12:18,613 ♪ I wish I hated you ♪ 244 00:12:18,697 --> 00:12:22,576 ♪ Our shadows dance in a parallel plane ♪ 245 00:12:22,659 --> 00:12:24,661 ♪ Just two different endings ♪ 246 00:12:24,744 --> 00:12:26,913 ♪ You learn to repair ♪ 247 00:12:26,997 --> 00:12:30,375 ♪ and I learn to keep me in one place… 248 00:12:30,459 --> 00:12:33,211 Everywhere I go, there's a memory of us 249 00:12:33,295 --> 00:12:35,839 from when we were golden. 250 00:12:35,922 --> 00:12:37,632 I'm ready. Yeah. 251 00:12:38,967 --> 00:12:42,220 ♪ And no matter how guilty ♪ 252 00:12:42,304 --> 00:12:45,348 ♪ I still feel saying it… 253 00:12:45,432 --> 00:12:47,809 - So… - * I wish I hated you… 254 00:12:47,893 --> 00:12:49,728 I just need to not be here. 255 00:12:58,820 --> 00:12:59,821 Hi. 256 00:12:59,905 --> 00:13:02,157 Mom, hi. Um, quick question. 257 00:13:02,240 --> 00:13:04,284 Can you send me my birth certificate? 258 00:13:04,367 --> 00:13:05,744 Overnight, if possible? 259 00:13:05,827 --> 00:13:09,080 Hello to you, too, my loving daughter. I'm fine, thanks for asking. 260 00:13:09,164 --> 00:13:12,459 - How are you? - Sorry. How are you, Mom? 261 00:13:12,542 --> 00:13:14,461 At an extremely dull conference. 262 00:13:14,544 --> 00:13:17,297 Which means I am nowhere near your birth certificate. 263 00:13:17,380 --> 00:13:18,798 What do you need it for anyway? 264 00:13:18,882 --> 00:13:20,133 A passport. 265 00:13:20,217 --> 00:13:23,178 I found out I got off the waitlist for Paris. 266 00:13:25,096 --> 00:13:28,558 That's fantastic! Honey, congratulations. 267 00:13:29,851 --> 00:13:31,061 How is Jere taking it? 268 00:13:31,144 --> 00:13:33,939 I know he'll miss you, but he must be so proud. 269 00:13:34,022 --> 00:13:36,816 Yeah. Um… 270 00:13:36,900 --> 00:13:39,819 - Mom, I got to go. - Okay. Love you. 271 00:13:44,199 --> 00:13:45,283 Bro. 272 00:13:45,367 --> 00:13:47,953 You're tweaking. You need to… 273 00:13:48,036 --> 00:13:49,246 level out. 274 00:13:49,329 --> 00:13:53,166 Try some of this new indica I got. It may help ease the pain. 275 00:13:53,250 --> 00:13:55,710 I just lost the most important person in my life. 276 00:13:55,794 --> 00:13:57,837 Sorry if I don't have the energy to be alive. 277 00:13:57,921 --> 00:13:59,464 Oh, you don't think I know about break ups? 278 00:13:59,548 --> 00:14:01,758 I know about break ups. You saw me after Sean. 279 00:14:01,841 --> 00:14:04,177 You two were together for two seconds, Redbird. 280 00:14:04,261 --> 00:14:07,347 - Felt like something to me. - I can't believe I fucked it up this bad. 281 00:14:08,431 --> 00:14:10,225 Dude, I-I-I dig your girl… 282 00:14:10,308 --> 00:14:13,353 I really do… and I say this with love, but… 283 00:14:13,436 --> 00:14:15,438 you two were broken up, right? 284 00:14:15,522 --> 00:14:18,858 And you were wasted as hell and Lacie was all over your shit… 285 00:14:18,942 --> 00:14:20,485 Bro, it is not an excuse! 286 00:14:20,569 --> 00:14:22,529 I should have told her as soon as I got back. 287 00:14:22,612 --> 00:14:25,198 Yeah. Yeah, probably. 288 00:14:34,207 --> 00:14:38,837 Belly's been the center of my world 289 00:14:38,920 --> 00:14:40,297 since I lost my mom. 290 00:14:42,966 --> 00:14:44,801 She's everything to me. 291 00:14:47,137 --> 00:14:48,763 And losing her feels like… 292 00:14:51,224 --> 00:14:55,770 It feels like I'm-I'm losing the best part of myself. 293 00:14:55,854 --> 00:14:58,189 That's beautiful, man. 294 00:15:02,277 --> 00:15:03,486 So fight for her. 295 00:15:03,570 --> 00:15:05,572 Stop saying you're sorry. 296 00:15:05,655 --> 00:15:06,823 Find a way to show her. 297 00:15:09,451 --> 00:15:10,869 You make it sound so easy. 298 00:15:10,952 --> 00:15:13,163 I don't think it's supposed to be. 299 00:15:16,833 --> 00:15:19,169 I just can't believe it. 300 00:15:19,252 --> 00:15:22,505 He acts so devoted, but he is just as shady as the rest. 301 00:15:22,589 --> 00:15:24,007 I swear, if he comes to our dorm, 302 00:15:24,090 --> 00:15:26,926 - it's on sight. - Don't smile, please. 303 00:15:27,010 --> 00:15:28,595 That won't be a problem. 304 00:15:28,678 --> 00:15:31,181 Kind of sucks you're not leaving for Paris tomorrow. 305 00:15:32,307 --> 00:15:34,726 - Do you think I'm being too hard on him? - Look. 306 00:15:36,561 --> 00:15:39,481 If he really thought you were broken up, 307 00:15:39,564 --> 00:15:41,650 technically, it's not cheating. 308 00:15:41,733 --> 00:15:43,818 But to keep it a secret? 309 00:15:43,902 --> 00:15:45,862 That tells me he knew what he did was wrong 310 00:15:45,945 --> 00:15:48,698 and he chose to keep it from you. 311 00:15:48,782 --> 00:15:51,618 That's the part I can't get over. 312 00:15:51,701 --> 00:15:56,122 What Anika didn't know was that I had a secret, too. 313 00:15:57,791 --> 00:16:00,043 It was the day after Christmas, last year. 314 00:16:00,126 --> 00:16:02,921 My mom was at a writer's retreat, Steven was visiting friends, 315 00:16:03,004 --> 00:16:06,549 Jere was going skiing with his dad and Conrad. 316 00:16:06,633 --> 00:16:11,471 I figured, why be home alone when I could be at my favorite place in the world? 317 00:16:11,554 --> 00:16:13,473 So I drove up in Steven's car and went to Cousins. 318 00:16:20,355 --> 00:16:22,023 Ah, shit. 319 00:16:22,107 --> 00:16:23,983 Shit, shit, shit. 320 00:16:24,067 --> 00:16:26,361 Oh, my God. Okay, what would Kevin do? 321 00:16:26,444 --> 00:16:28,488 What would Kevin do? 322 00:16:28,571 --> 00:16:29,781 Okay… 323 00:16:43,253 --> 00:16:45,004 Steven, open up, it's me. 324 00:16:49,926 --> 00:16:51,219 Belly. 325 00:16:51,302 --> 00:16:53,471 You okay? 326 00:16:53,555 --> 00:16:55,181 Yeah, yeah. Sorry. 327 00:16:55,265 --> 00:16:57,267 Just the flash got to me. 328 00:16:57,350 --> 00:16:59,352 - Okay. - Next. 329 00:17:10,613 --> 00:17:11,614 Belly… 330 00:17:11,698 --> 00:17:13,199 No. P-Please, don't leave. 331 00:17:13,283 --> 00:17:15,785 I-I made the biggest mistake of my life. 332 00:17:15,869 --> 00:17:17,912 Please, just talk to me. 333 00:17:17,996 --> 00:17:19,998 I'll tell you anything. 334 00:17:20,081 --> 00:17:23,126 I'll tell you any… I just don't want any more secrets between us. 335 00:17:24,711 --> 00:17:26,129 Okay. 336 00:17:29,299 --> 00:17:30,508 How did it happen? 337 00:17:31,843 --> 00:17:34,929 I-I was really sad. I was drunk. 338 00:17:36,514 --> 00:17:38,141 She was just there. 339 00:17:40,018 --> 00:17:41,394 How many times? 340 00:17:46,232 --> 00:17:47,442 Twice. 341 00:17:49,444 --> 00:17:52,697 - Jere, how could you do this to me? - Belly, please. 342 00:17:52,781 --> 00:17:56,201 I know I don't deserve you, but I love you more than anyone else in the world. 343 00:17:56,284 --> 00:17:58,578 And it kills me to see you hurting, and I would do anything to take it back. 344 00:17:58,661 --> 00:18:01,706 Just stop. You can't undo what you did. 345 00:18:01,790 --> 00:18:02,791 Belly… 346 00:18:02,874 --> 00:18:04,793 Please. I'm sorry. 347 00:18:04,876 --> 00:18:07,879 I'm so sor… I've never loved anyone but you. 348 00:18:07,962 --> 00:18:09,964 I love him, too. 349 00:18:10,048 --> 00:18:14,719 And I want to forgive him, I just don't know how. 350 00:18:16,221 --> 00:18:19,557 You were supposed to be the one person who would never hurt me. 351 00:18:22,018 --> 00:18:24,187 And now you're the person who hurt me the most. 352 00:18:33,154 --> 00:18:34,656 Laurel. 353 00:18:34,739 --> 00:18:36,407 - Eliot. - Hey. 354 00:18:36,491 --> 00:18:38,535 Hey. Wow. 355 00:18:38,618 --> 00:18:39,994 Fancy books you got there. 356 00:18:40,078 --> 00:18:42,455 Oh, yeah, you know, well, I've already read the Moncrieff translation 357 00:18:42,539 --> 00:18:44,332 - twice, so… - As one does. 358 00:18:44,415 --> 00:18:45,583 Yeah. 359 00:18:45,667 --> 00:18:47,794 Yeah, I've decided it's the year that I finally read 360 00:18:47,877 --> 00:18:49,879 À la Recherche du Temps Perdu 361 00:18:49,963 --> 00:18:51,840 in the original French. 362 00:18:51,923 --> 00:18:54,759 Go for it. Live on the edge. 363 00:18:54,843 --> 00:18:59,806 You know, um, you and I, we could start our own book group if, uh, 364 00:18:59,889 --> 00:19:01,474 - If you're interested. - Uh, unfortunately, 365 00:19:01,558 --> 00:19:04,269 Professor Park dropped out of French her first year of college. 366 00:19:04,352 --> 00:19:07,188 John, what are you doing here? 367 00:19:07,272 --> 00:19:11,234 Hoping to have a word with you, in private, Professor. 368 00:19:11,317 --> 00:19:12,819 - Uh… - Okay. 369 00:19:12,902 --> 00:19:14,946 See you later, Eliot? 370 00:19:15,029 --> 00:19:16,656 Uh, sure. Yeah, um… 371 00:19:16,739 --> 00:19:20,535 I'll be at the, uh, Flaubert symposium if you want to drop by. 372 00:19:20,618 --> 00:19:21,911 Okay. Sounds great. 373 00:19:21,995 --> 00:19:23,121 Okay. 374 00:19:25,748 --> 00:19:27,375 - What was that? - So, 375 00:19:27,458 --> 00:19:29,502 TAs are allowed to flirt with professors now? 376 00:19:29,586 --> 00:19:30,753 He's an adjunct. 377 00:19:30,837 --> 00:19:32,547 And maybe I was flirting back. 378 00:19:32,630 --> 00:19:33,965 Well, then I was doing him a favor. 379 00:19:34,048 --> 00:19:36,050 You would have eaten him alive in about five minutes. 380 00:19:36,134 --> 00:19:38,720 What's a history professor doing at a lit conference anyway? 381 00:19:38,803 --> 00:19:40,930 Researching potential crossover courses. 382 00:19:41,014 --> 00:19:44,142 Our provost is looking for ways to make history sexy again. 383 00:19:44,225 --> 00:19:47,687 And a lit conference is definitely the way to do that. 384 00:19:47,770 --> 00:19:49,606 Shoot me dead. 385 00:19:49,689 --> 00:19:51,816 Please make your way into Ballroom B 386 00:19:51,900 --> 00:19:55,528 - for Tropes of Old English Epic Poetry. - Thank you. 387 00:19:58,281 --> 00:19:59,282 That sounds… 388 00:19:59,365 --> 00:20:01,993 - Boring as shit. - Yeah. 389 00:20:02,076 --> 00:20:03,494 Okay. 390 00:20:05,830 --> 00:20:07,665 New plan. We find somewhere to drink this. 391 00:20:07,749 --> 00:20:09,709 - Steal a wine opener. - I can't do that. 392 00:20:09,792 --> 00:20:11,419 Pull your weight. 393 00:20:26,559 --> 00:20:29,604 Okay. Welcome to day one. 394 00:20:29,687 --> 00:20:31,606 By the end of the summer, I expect 395 00:20:31,689 --> 00:20:33,358 half of you will still be here. 396 00:20:33,441 --> 00:20:35,485 Don't piss me off and we'll be fine. 397 00:20:37,612 --> 00:20:41,074 Okay, first patient. We have a 15-year-old boy, 398 00:20:41,157 --> 00:20:43,117 came in following a seizure. 399 00:20:43,201 --> 00:20:44,827 Any thoughts on what might be going on? 400 00:20:46,329 --> 00:20:48,164 I want to start off with our first years. 401 00:20:48,247 --> 00:20:49,290 What do you say? 402 00:20:49,374 --> 00:20:51,125 - Well, it could… - Well… 403 00:20:51,209 --> 00:20:54,629 Uh, could be puberty hormones. He's 15. 404 00:20:54,712 --> 00:20:57,215 - Uh, could also… - He's also recovering from the flu, 405 00:20:57,298 --> 00:20:59,217 and fevers are the most common cause of seizures 406 00:20:59,300 --> 00:21:00,802 - at his age. - Very good. 407 00:21:00,885 --> 00:21:02,762 They also gave him nausea meds at the ER 408 00:21:02,845 --> 00:21:05,223 - and that does increase risk. - Good catch. 409 00:21:05,306 --> 00:21:08,142 Sometimes it's just the obvious answer. 410 00:21:08,226 --> 00:21:10,269 Absolutely. Thank you, Dr. Namazy. 411 00:21:10,353 --> 00:21:12,105 - I'll keep that in mind. - Okay. 412 00:21:12,188 --> 00:21:14,107 Next patient. 413 00:21:14,190 --> 00:21:16,901 Are you trying to make me the med student that gets cut on day one? 414 00:21:16,985 --> 00:21:18,361 I'm sure that's just a myth. 415 00:21:18,444 --> 00:21:21,030 It's fine, I'll take the L. Make it up on the next one. 416 00:21:21,114 --> 00:21:23,950 Look, I know that climbing up Namazy's ass is just a coping mechanism 417 00:21:24,033 --> 00:21:25,868 for your all-consuming love for your brother's girlfriend. 418 00:21:25,952 --> 00:21:29,580 - Why did I tell you that? - Because you were, like, yearning to. 419 00:21:29,664 --> 00:21:31,374 Whatever. 420 00:21:31,457 --> 00:21:36,004 Safest place to hang out at an academic conference is in the hotel gym. 421 00:21:36,087 --> 00:21:38,256 - Nice! - Give me your phone. 422 00:21:38,339 --> 00:21:40,550 - Mine's dead and I want to call the kids. - It's in my room. 423 00:21:40,633 --> 00:21:42,844 Also, the kids are fine. Also… 424 00:21:42,927 --> 00:21:46,806 - you're upside down. - Yes. Yes, I am. 425 00:21:49,559 --> 00:21:50,768 What are you doing? 426 00:21:50,852 --> 00:21:53,730 Getting some things off my chest. 427 00:21:53,813 --> 00:21:55,690 Oh, why did I ask? 428 00:21:55,773 --> 00:21:58,651 You know, even though our marriage went to shit, 429 00:21:58,735 --> 00:22:02,238 we ended up being pretty good co-parents. 430 00:22:02,321 --> 00:22:03,489 Yes, we did. 431 00:22:05,283 --> 00:22:07,326 ♪ I've been down one time… 432 00:22:07,410 --> 00:22:09,328 Oh, my God! I just remembered. 433 00:22:09,412 --> 00:22:14,167 Belly called me today to say she's studying abroad next semester 434 00:22:14,250 --> 00:22:15,334 in Paris! 435 00:22:15,418 --> 00:22:17,503 Oh! Do you know 436 00:22:17,587 --> 00:22:19,547 how the Parisian police found Quasimodo? 437 00:22:20,631 --> 00:22:21,883 They followed a hunch. 438 00:22:22,967 --> 00:22:25,094 Please, never tell that joke again. 439 00:22:25,178 --> 00:22:26,596 You used to love my jokes. 440 00:22:26,679 --> 00:22:29,390 You used to laugh so hard, beer would come out your nose. 441 00:22:29,474 --> 00:22:31,726 In fact, wasn't that why you slept with me on our first date? 442 00:22:31,809 --> 00:22:33,811 I was fake laughing. 443 00:22:33,895 --> 00:22:36,814 And I planned to sleep with you all along. 444 00:22:37,899 --> 00:22:39,776 You did? 445 00:22:39,859 --> 00:22:41,152 Mind if I work in? 446 00:22:41,235 --> 00:22:42,987 Uh, no, it's all yours. 447 00:22:43,071 --> 00:22:44,072 Uh, nope, we're done here. 448 00:22:44,155 --> 00:22:46,032 Appreciate it. 449 00:23:00,046 --> 00:23:01,089 Why are you here? 450 00:23:01,172 --> 00:23:03,591 What do you… You haven't responded to my texts all day. 451 00:23:03,674 --> 00:23:05,718 It's… finals. 452 00:23:05,802 --> 00:23:06,969 It's a stressful time. 453 00:23:07,053 --> 00:23:08,971 Tay, are you okay? What's wrong? 454 00:23:10,056 --> 00:23:11,849 Uh, I'm… I'm hungry. 455 00:23:11,933 --> 00:23:15,061 Okay, then let's… let's just grab some food. 456 00:23:15,144 --> 00:23:16,437 Come on, get in. 457 00:23:19,732 --> 00:23:21,109 Okay. 458 00:23:36,707 --> 00:23:38,626 So, uh… 459 00:23:40,044 --> 00:23:42,505 …uh, where do you want to go eat? 460 00:23:42,588 --> 00:23:44,340 I don't know. 461 00:23:48,845 --> 00:23:50,429 What? 462 00:23:53,432 --> 00:23:54,433 Uh, 463 00:23:54,517 --> 00:23:56,018 I broke up with Mia. 464 00:24:02,066 --> 00:24:03,442 I hope you didn't do that for me. 465 00:24:03,526 --> 00:24:04,777 What? 466 00:24:07,196 --> 00:24:08,489 Well, uh… 467 00:24:08,573 --> 00:24:10,408 Sorry. 468 00:24:10,491 --> 00:24:13,786 I just, I thought you'd be happy that I just wanted to be with you. 469 00:24:13,870 --> 00:24:16,080 After-after the other night, sleeping over. 470 00:24:16,164 --> 00:24:18,040 Steven, I… You're wrong, 471 00:24:18,124 --> 00:24:20,877 and I've told you before, I just want this to be casual. 472 00:24:20,960 --> 00:24:23,671 Okay. It's never casual with you and me, Taylor. You know that. 473 00:24:23,754 --> 00:24:26,257 - Oh, my God. - Let's just stop fucking around, you know, 474 00:24:26,340 --> 00:24:27,508 and do it for real so we don't keep hurting other people. 475 00:24:27,592 --> 00:24:28,968 They don't even know about us. 476 00:24:29,051 --> 00:24:30,553 That doesn't matter. It's still messed up. 477 00:24:32,138 --> 00:24:33,973 Taylor, I want you and me to have a fresh start. 478 00:24:34,056 --> 00:24:36,934 You know, free and-and clear and clean. 479 00:24:37,018 --> 00:24:38,728 Steven, we've tried before. 480 00:24:38,811 --> 00:24:39,797 - We've tried a million times. - We were kids then. 481 00:24:39,812 --> 00:24:40,855 - We don't work. It never works. - We were… 482 00:24:40,938 --> 00:24:42,398 Taylor, you are the only girl 483 00:24:42,481 --> 00:24:44,483 - I want to be with. - Oh, my God. What… 484 00:24:44,567 --> 00:24:46,235 - I'm telling you I-I think I love you. - Stop. 485 00:24:46,319 --> 00:24:48,613 Stop! No, don't… I-I-I can't do this. 486 00:24:48,696 --> 00:24:49,989 - What are you talk… - Can you just, 487 00:24:50,072 --> 00:24:51,365 - can you pull over and let me out… - Taylor, pl… Taylor. 488 00:24:51,449 --> 00:24:52,783 - …of the fucking car? - No, Taylor, I need you to listen to me. 489 00:24:52,867 --> 00:24:54,202 - Please. That's all I'm asking for… - Steven, please, 490 00:24:54,285 --> 00:24:55,369 just let me out of the car! 491 00:24:55,453 --> 00:24:56,495 We're in the middle of the road, Taylor. 492 00:24:56,579 --> 00:24:57,955 - I'm not doing that. - I don't care! I want to leave! 493 00:24:58,039 --> 00:25:01,626 Pull over and let me out of the fucking car! 494 00:25:01,709 --> 00:25:03,794 Fine! Fine! Fine! Fuck! 495 00:25:03,878 --> 00:25:06,464 Here, I'm pulling over, okay? 496 00:25:11,552 --> 00:25:13,137 Taylor, what the fuck? 497 00:25:27,693 --> 00:25:30,488 Taylor, I told you I don't want… 498 00:25:31,739 --> 00:25:33,616 Oh, my God. 499 00:25:35,993 --> 00:25:37,495 Taylor. 500 00:25:40,206 --> 00:25:41,874 I'm really sorry. 501 00:25:41,958 --> 00:25:44,252 What happened? Were you with him? 502 00:25:44,335 --> 00:25:46,170 Are you hurt? 503 00:25:46,254 --> 00:25:47,463 What happened? 504 00:25:47,546 --> 00:25:49,548 I… I wasn't in the car. 505 00:25:49,632 --> 00:25:50,633 Okay. 506 00:25:50,716 --> 00:25:52,551 We were arguing… 507 00:25:53,803 --> 00:25:55,012 …and I jumped out, 508 00:25:55,096 --> 00:25:56,764 and he was trying to come after me. 509 00:25:56,847 --> 00:25:58,516 Okay. 510 00:26:00,101 --> 00:26:01,269 What? 511 00:26:04,188 --> 00:26:05,481 What? 512 00:26:06,774 --> 00:26:07,817 Hey, what happened? 513 00:26:07,900 --> 00:26:09,235 It's just my fault. 514 00:26:09,318 --> 00:26:12,280 No, no, no, it's not your fault. 515 00:26:12,363 --> 00:26:13,614 Yes, it is. 516 00:26:13,698 --> 00:26:14,949 You're with Steven Conklin? 517 00:26:15,032 --> 00:26:16,826 Yeah, yeah. 518 00:26:16,909 --> 00:26:17,910 Is he okay? 519 00:26:17,994 --> 00:26:19,245 Uh, Initial scans show a cracked rib 520 00:26:19,328 --> 00:26:21,747 and a cerebral contusion. 521 00:26:21,831 --> 00:26:23,374 Cerebral contusion? What? 522 00:26:23,457 --> 00:26:24,709 It's a bruise on the brain. 523 00:26:24,792 --> 00:26:27,003 We won't know how serious it is until the swelling goes down. 524 00:26:27,086 --> 00:26:29,588 Until then, we'll keep him sedated. 525 00:26:29,672 --> 00:26:31,757 So we just wait and see? Is that it? 526 00:26:31,841 --> 00:26:33,467 There's some paperwork to fill out, 527 00:26:33,551 --> 00:26:35,428 and someone will need to make decisions on his behalf. 528 00:26:35,511 --> 00:26:36,512 Can that be one of you? 529 00:26:36,595 --> 00:26:37,847 I'm his sister. 530 00:26:37,930 --> 00:26:39,640 Sister works. 531 00:26:39,724 --> 00:26:42,226 Okay. Um, what kind of decisions do I… 532 00:26:42,310 --> 00:26:44,228 Uh, it's… it's in the paperwork there. 533 00:26:46,314 --> 00:26:47,898 Uh-huh. 534 00:26:47,982 --> 00:26:50,151 I need to… I need to try my parents again. 535 00:26:50,234 --> 00:26:51,360 - I couldn't reach either of them. - Okay. 536 00:26:51,444 --> 00:26:52,945 I-I will try them. I will do it. 537 00:26:53,029 --> 00:26:54,530 Okay. 538 00:26:54,613 --> 00:26:56,824 I don't know Steven's fucking insurance, 539 00:26:56,907 --> 00:26:58,576 if he's on our parent's insurance or his job. 540 00:26:58,659 --> 00:27:01,078 How am I supposed to know his fucking blood type? 541 00:27:01,162 --> 00:27:05,583 I think… I think I remember Steven bragging about being a universal donor. 542 00:27:05,666 --> 00:27:07,668 Of course, he would brag about anything. 543 00:27:09,754 --> 00:27:12,340 Okay, uh, he… O negative. 544 00:27:12,423 --> 00:27:14,091 He's O negative. 545 00:27:14,175 --> 00:27:15,176 Okay. 546 00:27:15,259 --> 00:27:17,428 - I'm gonna try your parents again. - Okay. 547 00:27:17,511 --> 00:27:19,180 I think I should, uh, 548 00:27:19,263 --> 00:27:21,223 let a few other people know, too. 549 00:27:22,308 --> 00:27:23,434 You want me to call Jere? 550 00:27:25,978 --> 00:27:29,482 I don't know. An hour ago, I wanted to throw up thinking about him, 551 00:27:29,565 --> 00:27:32,151 but now I just… 552 00:27:32,234 --> 00:27:34,445 - I just wish he was here. - Hey. 553 00:27:34,528 --> 00:27:38,115 He would know what to say to make me feel better. 554 00:27:41,619 --> 00:27:43,621 I'm gonna be your Jere today. 555 00:27:44,705 --> 00:27:45,873 Okay, we'll track down your parents. 556 00:27:45,956 --> 00:27:48,709 I will call Jere's dumb ass, too. Okay? 557 00:27:48,793 --> 00:27:51,087 Just… just fill out the paperwork 558 00:27:51,170 --> 00:27:52,922 and leave the rest to me. I'm gonna do it. 559 00:27:53,005 --> 00:27:54,298 Okay. Thank you. 560 00:27:54,382 --> 00:27:56,675 Um, can you call, uh, Conrad, too? 561 00:27:56,759 --> 00:27:57,802 'Cause he just might 562 00:27:57,885 --> 00:27:59,220 understand what all this means. 563 00:27:59,303 --> 00:28:02,014 Yeah, I got you. I'm gonna call Conrad. 564 00:28:06,602 --> 00:28:07,853 Well, I-I'll hop on the next flight. 565 00:28:07,937 --> 00:28:09,438 No, it's fine. Laurel and John 566 00:28:09,522 --> 00:28:11,273 - will probably be here by then. - Okay. 567 00:28:11,357 --> 00:28:14,860 Well, tell me what the doctor said, exactly. 568 00:28:14,944 --> 00:28:17,196 He's kind of a dick. He basically blew us off. 569 00:28:17,279 --> 00:28:18,280 We're-we're trying to get updates, 570 00:28:18,364 --> 00:28:19,698 - but… - Well, maybe I can help. 571 00:28:19,782 --> 00:28:21,367 Where's he admitted? 572 00:28:21,450 --> 00:28:24,245 We're at, um, Provid… Providence General, but 573 00:28:24,328 --> 00:28:26,622 - how? What are you… - I will figure it out. 574 00:28:28,124 --> 00:28:29,917 I just want to do something. 575 00:28:32,336 --> 00:28:33,921 Hey, how's Belly? 576 00:28:34,004 --> 00:28:35,047 She's fine. 577 00:28:35,131 --> 00:28:36,132 Yeah? Okay. 578 00:28:36,215 --> 00:28:37,216 - Yeah. - Yeah. 579 00:28:37,299 --> 00:28:39,343 - Great. - Okay. 580 00:28:39,427 --> 00:28:41,512 Well, just keep me updated, okay? 581 00:28:41,595 --> 00:28:44,306 - Yep, will do. - All right. 582 00:28:45,558 --> 00:28:46,684 Dr. Namazy? 583 00:28:46,767 --> 00:28:47,768 Excuse me. 584 00:28:47,852 --> 00:28:49,061 What's up? 585 00:28:49,145 --> 00:28:51,605 Uh, a friend of mine was in a car accident. 586 00:28:51,689 --> 00:28:53,482 Uh, very close friend. 587 00:28:53,566 --> 00:28:57,194 More like family, and he's at Providence General. 588 00:28:57,278 --> 00:29:00,197 Is there any chance you know anyone in neurology there? 589 00:29:00,281 --> 00:29:02,241 The head of neurology is a friend of a friend. 590 00:29:02,324 --> 00:29:03,826 Well, his name is Steven Conklin. 591 00:29:03,909 --> 00:29:07,746 Do you think there's any possible way that you could make a call? 592 00:29:09,707 --> 00:29:11,167 I'll see what I can do. 593 00:29:11,250 --> 00:29:12,877 Thank you. 594 00:29:12,960 --> 00:29:14,879 Do you think you need to take the day? 595 00:29:16,922 --> 00:29:18,340 Uh, no. 596 00:29:19,425 --> 00:29:20,801 I'm good. 597 00:29:20,885 --> 00:29:22,344 Okay. 598 00:29:50,372 --> 00:29:52,082 Jere's in the lobby. 599 00:29:52,166 --> 00:29:54,126 Yeah, I know, babe. 600 00:29:54,210 --> 00:29:56,003 He just wants to be nearby if we need him. 601 00:29:56,086 --> 00:29:57,588 He's not gonna come try and talk to you, 602 00:29:57,671 --> 00:29:59,381 or anything. 603 00:29:59,465 --> 00:30:01,592 That's so sweet. 604 00:30:01,675 --> 00:30:03,010 Why does he have to be so sweet? 605 00:30:04,803 --> 00:30:06,347 Should I text him? 606 00:30:08,766 --> 00:30:10,809 Isabel Conklin? 607 00:30:10,893 --> 00:30:12,353 Yeah. 608 00:30:12,436 --> 00:30:14,605 I'm Dr. Jun Kwaan. I head up the neurology team. 609 00:30:14,688 --> 00:30:16,232 I'm taking over your brother's case. 610 00:30:16,315 --> 00:30:17,650 Does that mean he's gotten worse? 611 00:30:17,733 --> 00:30:20,486 No, it means someone well-connected is looking out for you. 612 00:30:22,279 --> 00:30:24,865 I got a call from a colleague at Stanford. 613 00:30:24,949 --> 00:30:26,617 Steven is sedated and sleeping. 614 00:30:26,700 --> 00:30:28,786 He's stable, and I've ordered a CT scan. 615 00:30:28,869 --> 00:30:30,246 Have you seen him yet? 616 00:30:31,330 --> 00:30:32,456 Well, let's get you back there. 617 00:30:32,540 --> 00:30:35,209 We allow two visitors, immediate family only, 618 00:30:35,292 --> 00:30:37,169 so I'll presume this is 619 00:30:37,253 --> 00:30:39,755 Steven's other sister. Follow me. 620 00:30:46,679 --> 00:30:48,097 Any news on your friend? 621 00:30:48,180 --> 00:30:50,558 No. 622 00:30:50,641 --> 00:30:52,434 Are you sure you shouldn't just go out there? 623 00:30:52,518 --> 00:30:54,228 I don't know even know what I would do if I did. 624 00:30:54,311 --> 00:30:55,437 It's not like I'm a doctor yet. 625 00:30:56,647 --> 00:30:59,191 Plus, we've barely talked over the last few years. 626 00:31:00,276 --> 00:31:02,194 No cell phones. 627 00:31:02,278 --> 00:31:03,821 Yeah. 628 00:31:03,904 --> 00:31:05,614 How did everything go with those blood draws? 629 00:31:05,698 --> 00:31:07,324 - Good. - Great. 630 00:31:11,787 --> 00:31:13,747 This is mislabeled. 631 00:31:13,831 --> 00:31:16,458 Oh, that's, uh, that's mine. My mistake. 632 00:31:16,542 --> 00:31:18,752 A mistake that put your patient at risk. 633 00:31:18,836 --> 00:31:20,963 - I'll fix it right now. - You should've gone home 634 00:31:21,046 --> 00:31:22,047 when I gave you the chance. 635 00:31:22,131 --> 00:31:23,799 - It won't happen again. - No, it won't. 636 00:31:23,882 --> 00:31:26,594 You're done here. You're not ready for this. 637 00:31:27,970 --> 00:31:30,264 You're firing me for one mistake? 638 00:31:30,347 --> 00:31:31,974 Dr. Namazy, please, I didn't… 639 00:31:32,057 --> 00:31:33,684 You may see this as one mistake, 640 00:31:33,767 --> 00:31:36,437 but this is about you not knowing your limits, 641 00:31:36,520 --> 00:31:38,314 which makes you a walking liability. 642 00:31:38,397 --> 00:31:39,397 My liability. 643 00:31:39,440 --> 00:31:40,733 Dr. Namazy, I… 644 00:31:40,816 --> 00:31:42,109 No. 645 00:31:42,192 --> 00:31:44,403 You can always apply again next year. 646 00:32:07,343 --> 00:32:10,220 Steven, can I tell you a secret? 647 00:32:10,304 --> 00:32:12,973 I've never loved anyone like I love you. 648 00:32:16,685 --> 00:32:18,604 Do you know how scary that is? 649 00:32:23,275 --> 00:32:25,611 I know I act like I don't care, 650 00:32:25,694 --> 00:32:29,114 but I just… I care so, so much. 651 00:32:33,661 --> 00:32:35,579 You know, I'm always afraid that it's just a matter of time 652 00:32:35,663 --> 00:32:38,499 before you come to me and you tell me that I'm not worth it. 653 00:32:38,582 --> 00:32:40,668 You're just gonna be like, 654 00:32:40,751 --> 00:32:42,711 "Actually, you're not worth it." 655 00:32:54,598 --> 00:32:57,893 So I figured if I keep pushing you away 656 00:32:57,976 --> 00:32:59,937 and pretend like you don't mean anything to me, 657 00:33:00,020 --> 00:33:01,814 then you can't hurt me. 658 00:33:03,440 --> 00:33:06,443 And I don't know how to stop doing that. 659 00:33:17,037 --> 00:33:19,289 You know, the first time we got together, 660 00:33:19,373 --> 00:33:21,834 you remember you told me that you were like… 661 00:33:21,917 --> 00:33:24,795 you told me that you wouldn't give up on us? 662 00:33:26,922 --> 00:33:31,009 You have no idea how badly I wanted to believe you. 663 00:33:46,817 --> 00:33:50,279 I have good news. The CT scan is clear. 664 00:33:50,362 --> 00:33:53,282 The CT scan is clear? What does that mean? 665 00:33:53,365 --> 00:33:55,159 The swelling on Steven's brain has gone down 666 00:33:55,242 --> 00:33:57,828 and we can start weaning him off the sedatives. 667 00:33:57,911 --> 00:33:59,747 It'll be a while until he wakes up. 668 00:33:59,830 --> 00:34:01,081 We'll let you know when he's ready for visitors. 669 00:34:01,165 --> 00:34:02,833 - Thank you. - Mm-hmm. 670 00:34:05,127 --> 00:34:08,130 It's okay. He's going to be okay. 671 00:34:08,213 --> 00:34:09,798 I've just been scared. 672 00:34:17,264 --> 00:34:18,932 I'm really sorry to dump this on you. 673 00:34:19,016 --> 00:34:21,351 I know that… I know you don't think that Steven and I should get back together. 674 00:34:21,435 --> 00:34:25,105 - No, I never should've judged you… - You were right. 675 00:34:25,189 --> 00:34:28,192 I've been all over the place. 676 00:34:28,275 --> 00:34:31,278 Like, not wanting to let go of Steven, but still keeping Davis around 677 00:34:31,361 --> 00:34:34,490 as this, like, emotional buffer, it's shitty, 678 00:34:34,573 --> 00:34:36,492 and selfish. 679 00:34:36,575 --> 00:34:41,079 And Steven was trying to do the right thing and I just freaked. 680 00:34:41,163 --> 00:34:43,791 But all this, it's like… 681 00:34:47,461 --> 00:34:49,004 I think… 682 00:34:49,087 --> 00:34:52,674 I think that it made me realize that even though I'm so scared… 683 00:34:52,758 --> 00:34:55,260 I'm so scared to lose Steven again, 684 00:34:55,344 --> 00:34:58,430 I'm… I'm more scared not to try. 685 00:35:01,934 --> 00:35:04,812 I'm gonna… I'm gonna break up with Davis. 686 00:35:07,064 --> 00:35:09,817 Whatever you want to do, I support you. 687 00:35:19,117 --> 00:35:20,869 All right, how rough do I look right now? 688 00:35:20,953 --> 00:35:22,329 Do I look hot? 689 00:35:22,412 --> 00:35:24,665 I'm not gonna lie to you. 690 00:35:24,748 --> 00:35:28,752 I look that bad? 691 00:35:28,836 --> 00:35:31,588 Just go back to the house, eat something. 692 00:35:31,672 --> 00:35:33,924 Shower. 693 00:35:34,007 --> 00:35:35,551 Well, you heard the doctor. 694 00:35:35,634 --> 00:35:37,511 He's not gonna be up for a little while anyway. 695 00:35:37,594 --> 00:35:39,429 Thanks, babe. 696 00:35:41,557 --> 00:35:44,142 Hey… 697 00:35:47,354 --> 00:35:50,399 If you want to get back with Jeremiah, just do it. 698 00:35:50,482 --> 00:35:52,276 I never said that I… 699 00:35:52,359 --> 00:35:55,195 And make him beg, obviously, but… 700 00:35:55,279 --> 00:35:58,365 don't just throw away everything you guys have had for the past four years. 701 00:36:01,243 --> 00:36:04,496 Like, not if it's still what you want. 702 00:36:09,042 --> 00:36:10,627 Okay. 703 00:36:19,386 --> 00:36:21,054 Laur. 704 00:36:21,138 --> 00:36:23,974 We got to get up. 705 00:36:26,184 --> 00:36:28,437 Shut up. 706 00:36:28,520 --> 00:36:30,647 Still not a morning person, huh? 707 00:36:33,275 --> 00:36:36,111 Oh, my eyes are crispy. 708 00:36:36,194 --> 00:36:38,280 Can you bring me some of your contact solution? 709 00:36:38,363 --> 00:36:40,032 Yeah. 710 00:36:49,416 --> 00:36:51,335 Oh, my God. 711 00:36:53,003 --> 00:36:55,505 John, get in here. 712 00:36:55,589 --> 00:36:58,008 Oh, my God, Mom, where were you? 713 00:36:58,091 --> 00:36:59,635 - Belly, I just got your messages. - What is it? 714 00:36:59,718 --> 00:37:02,012 What's going on? Uh, Steven was in an accident? 715 00:37:02,095 --> 00:37:03,221 Is he okay? 716 00:37:03,305 --> 00:37:05,849 He's gonna be fine. 717 00:37:05,933 --> 00:37:08,727 I've been trying to keep it together, but I'm… 718 00:37:08,810 --> 00:37:10,896 I was so scared. 719 00:37:10,979 --> 00:37:13,148 Oh… Shut up. 720 00:37:13,231 --> 00:37:15,776 I can't imagine how terrified you must've been. 721 00:37:15,859 --> 00:37:18,278 I'm s-so, so sorry. 722 00:37:18,362 --> 00:37:20,530 Have you been there all alone? 723 00:37:20,614 --> 00:37:22,282 No, no. Um… 724 00:37:22,366 --> 00:37:26,787 Taylor's here and she's been amazing, and… 725 00:37:26,870 --> 00:37:30,290 And Jere's here. He stayed all night. 726 00:37:30,374 --> 00:37:32,292 Mom, things have been so crazy. 727 00:37:32,376 --> 00:37:36,672 Listen, sweetheart, I'll be there as soon as I can, and, um… 728 00:37:36,755 --> 00:37:39,049 I-I'll track down your dad and let him know. 729 00:37:40,092 --> 00:37:41,843 I love you so much, Belly. 730 00:37:41,927 --> 00:37:44,805 I love you, Mommy. 731 00:37:44,888 --> 00:37:47,182 S-Steven was in a car accident? 732 00:37:47,265 --> 00:37:48,433 - He's okay. - Okay. 733 00:37:48,517 --> 00:37:50,519 - He's gonna be fine. - Fuck. 734 00:37:50,602 --> 00:37:52,229 But Belly couldn't reach either of us last night. 735 00:37:52,312 --> 00:37:55,941 - Oh, it's okay. It's… - Just meet me in the lobby in five. 736 00:38:15,544 --> 00:38:19,381 We hadn't seen each other much over the years, 737 00:38:19,464 --> 00:38:20,882 and we hadn't been alone together since… 738 00:38:20,966 --> 00:38:22,592 Hey. 739 00:38:22,676 --> 00:38:23,927 …that day at the motel. 740 00:38:24,011 --> 00:38:26,138 - Hey. - Hey. 741 00:38:32,644 --> 00:38:34,187 Why are you holding a poker? 742 00:38:35,397 --> 00:38:38,692 Oh, um, I thought you were a burglar. 743 00:38:38,775 --> 00:38:40,610 Of course you did. 744 00:38:44,698 --> 00:38:46,825 Where's Jere? 745 00:38:46,908 --> 00:38:49,327 He and your dad are on their way to Chamonix. 746 00:38:50,662 --> 00:38:51,663 Right. 747 00:38:53,290 --> 00:38:55,083 Aren't you supposed to be meeting them there? 748 00:38:55,167 --> 00:38:57,753 Yeah, my flight got delayed because of the weather. 749 00:38:57,836 --> 00:39:00,047 They were trying to rebook me for the 28th. 750 00:39:00,130 --> 00:39:01,214 Mm. 751 00:39:01,298 --> 00:39:02,841 What are you doing here? 752 00:39:03,884 --> 00:39:07,262 My mom is on a retreat in the mountains and Steven's in New York. 753 00:39:07,345 --> 00:39:08,930 I was all alone at home. 754 00:39:09,014 --> 00:39:10,766 So… 755 00:39:33,580 --> 00:39:35,373 You have chocolate all over your face. 756 00:39:35,457 --> 00:39:36,792 No, I don't. 757 00:39:36,875 --> 00:39:39,211 What did you do? You just stick your whole head in to save time? 758 00:39:39,294 --> 00:39:40,294 Shut it. 759 00:39:41,463 --> 00:39:43,256 Leave me alone. 760 00:39:43,340 --> 00:39:44,508 You cold? I could start a fire. 761 00:39:50,180 --> 00:39:52,766 Actually, I think it's maybe a little late for a fire. 762 00:39:52,849 --> 00:39:54,684 Think I'm just gonna crash. 763 00:39:56,895 --> 00:39:58,313 Merry Christmas, Belly. 764 00:39:59,523 --> 00:40:00,607 It's really good to see you. 765 00:40:05,654 --> 00:40:07,447 You, too. 766 00:40:14,871 --> 00:40:18,500 The next morning, right when I woke up, 767 00:40:18,583 --> 00:40:21,878 I had this funny feeling that he had already left. 768 00:40:23,380 --> 00:40:24,631 Ow. 769 00:40:24,714 --> 00:40:26,258 Ow. 770 00:40:32,347 --> 00:40:33,347 You okay? 771 00:40:33,390 --> 00:40:36,768 Oh, no. Leave me alone. 772 00:40:36,852 --> 00:40:38,353 Are you hurt? Can you move? 773 00:40:39,479 --> 00:40:40,856 I thought you were gone. 774 00:40:40,939 --> 00:40:42,399 Nope. 775 00:40:42,482 --> 00:40:44,442 Still here. 776 00:40:44,526 --> 00:40:45,652 Ow. 777 00:40:46,820 --> 00:40:48,238 Let me help you up. 778 00:40:48,321 --> 00:40:49,948 No, no, no. Ow. Just… 779 00:40:50,031 --> 00:40:52,200 Just… give me a minute. 780 00:40:52,284 --> 00:40:53,535 Okay. 781 00:41:02,043 --> 00:41:05,130 How bad does it hurt on a scale from one to ten? 782 00:41:05,213 --> 00:41:06,673 Eleven. 783 00:41:06,756 --> 00:41:08,383 You're such a baby when it comes to pain. 784 00:41:08,466 --> 00:41:10,343 No, I'm not. 785 00:41:11,511 --> 00:41:14,014 I mean, that fall you took was no joke. 786 00:41:15,348 --> 00:41:17,100 Seriously, it was like… 787 00:41:17,184 --> 00:41:20,687 when animals slip and fall in cartoons on banana peels. 788 00:41:20,770 --> 00:41:23,398 Are you calling me an animal? 789 00:41:24,441 --> 00:41:27,402 Ow. 790 00:41:27,485 --> 00:41:29,070 Ow. 791 00:41:30,197 --> 00:41:32,908 I'm gonna pick you up and I'm gonna carry you to the couch. 792 00:41:32,991 --> 00:41:36,953 No, no, no, just… J-Just… No, just, I'm too heavy for you. 793 00:41:37,037 --> 00:41:39,122 - Just leave me here. - Okay. 794 00:41:39,206 --> 00:41:40,749 I know I can't bench press my body weight like Jere, 795 00:41:40,832 --> 00:41:42,918 but I can pick you up, Belly. 796 00:41:44,127 --> 00:41:45,170 Ready? 797 00:41:46,379 --> 00:41:47,714 Okay, come on. 798 00:41:47,797 --> 00:41:50,008 Okay. Ow. 799 00:41:50,091 --> 00:41:51,760 You're okay. 800 00:41:51,843 --> 00:41:54,888 - Ready? - Ow. 801 00:41:56,681 --> 00:41:58,975 Watch your legs. 802 00:42:00,852 --> 00:42:02,312 Ow. 803 00:42:02,395 --> 00:42:04,940 - You're okay. - Yeah. Ow. 804 00:42:09,694 --> 00:42:12,113 That's when I had this sudden thought. 805 00:42:12,197 --> 00:42:15,951 A part of me will always love you. 806 00:42:26,753 --> 00:42:30,674 We spent the day together, but not "together." 807 00:42:31,883 --> 00:42:34,761 ♪ Oh, to see without my eyes… 808 00:42:36,429 --> 00:42:40,684 ♪ The first time that you kissed me ♪ 809 00:42:40,767 --> 00:42:42,936 ♪ Boundless by the time I cried… 810 00:42:43,019 --> 00:42:47,565 "Entertainingly expressive"? H, blank, blank, blank, Y? 811 00:42:50,527 --> 00:42:52,320 "Hammy." 812 00:42:52,404 --> 00:42:55,448 - "Hammy." - Mm. 813 00:42:55,532 --> 00:42:58,493 ♪ Fumbling by Rogue River ♪ 814 00:42:58,576 --> 00:43:01,496 ♪ Feel my feet above the ground… 815 00:43:03,331 --> 00:43:06,334 She was better off with Laszlo. 816 00:43:06,418 --> 00:43:09,879 You're insane. Rick and Ilsa are obviously meant for each other. 817 00:43:09,963 --> 00:43:12,215 Their little love story is nothing 818 00:43:12,299 --> 00:43:14,634 compared to the work that Laszlo was doing for the Resistance. 819 00:43:14,718 --> 00:43:16,761 Oh, my God. What? 820 00:43:16,845 --> 00:43:20,140 I'm gonna get more firewood. 821 00:43:20,223 --> 00:43:22,309 You're way too young to be this cynical. 822 00:43:22,392 --> 00:43:23,977 Yeah, yeah. 823 00:43:30,984 --> 00:43:32,444 - Belly. Belly. - Hey. 824 00:43:32,527 --> 00:43:34,446 Hey, sorry, my reception out here is terrible. 825 00:43:34,529 --> 00:43:36,990 I'm on a mountain freezing my balls off. What are you up to? 826 00:43:37,073 --> 00:43:38,908 I'm actually in Cousins. 827 00:43:38,992 --> 00:43:41,828 I-I got super lonely, so I-I drove up. 828 00:43:41,911 --> 00:43:44,247 Oh, nice. Uh, did you bring Taylor? 829 00:43:44,331 --> 00:43:47,000 No, I came by myself. 830 00:43:47,083 --> 00:43:48,168 Well, I wish you were here with me. 831 00:43:48,251 --> 00:43:50,587 Conrad's flight got messed up because of the weather, 832 00:43:50,670 --> 00:43:52,172 so I'm stuck here with my dad. 833 00:43:52,255 --> 00:43:54,966 - Yeah, he, uh… - What? 834 00:43:55,050 --> 00:43:56,926 Hello? 835 00:43:57,010 --> 00:43:58,010 Belly? Can you hear me? 836 00:43:58,053 --> 00:44:00,680 - Jere, I… - I can't hear what you're saying. 837 00:44:00,764 --> 00:44:02,682 Uh, never mind. 838 00:44:02,766 --> 00:44:04,184 What? 839 00:44:04,267 --> 00:44:05,977 Wait, um, I'll try you tomorrow. 840 00:44:06,061 --> 00:44:08,897 - Okay. Bye, Bells. - Okay. Okay, love you. 841 00:44:14,778 --> 00:44:16,946 Hey, I… I would've told Jere that you're here, too, 842 00:44:17,030 --> 00:44:19,366 - it's just… - Don't worry about it. 843 00:44:19,449 --> 00:44:22,160 I never told Jeremiah that Conrad was with me at Cousins. 844 00:44:22,243 --> 00:44:23,787 Because there was nothing to tell. 845 00:44:23,870 --> 00:44:26,414 Nothing happened with Conrad. 846 00:44:26,498 --> 00:44:28,875 Nothing was ever going to happen. 847 00:44:28,958 --> 00:44:32,045 ♪ Now I'm prone to misery ♪ 848 00:44:32,128 --> 00:44:38,176 ♪ The birthmark on your shoulder reminds me… 849 00:44:38,259 --> 00:44:41,721 The next morning, Conrad was gone. 850 00:44:44,182 --> 00:44:47,060 He left just like I thought he would. 851 00:44:49,396 --> 00:44:53,400 No goodbye, just gone like a ghost. 852 00:45:02,659 --> 00:45:04,327 ♪ How much sorrow can I take? ♪ 853 00:45:04,411 --> 00:45:07,288 Conrad Fisher, the Ghost of Christmas Past. 854 00:45:07,372 --> 00:45:11,376 ♪ Blackbird on my shoulder ♪ 855 00:45:11,459 --> 00:45:15,964 ♪ And what difference does it make ♪ 856 00:45:16,047 --> 00:45:17,799 ♪ when this love ♪ 857 00:45:17,882 --> 00:45:20,593 ♪ is over? ♪ 858 00:45:20,677 --> 00:45:23,721 ♪ Shall I sleep within your bed? ♪ 859 00:45:25,223 --> 00:45:29,185 ♪ River of unhappiness ♪ 860 00:45:29,269 --> 00:45:31,479 ♪ Hold your hands upon ♪ 861 00:45:31,563 --> 00:45:33,773 ♪ my head ♪ 862 00:45:33,857 --> 00:45:35,900 ♪ till I breathe ♪ 863 00:45:35,984 --> 00:45:38,153 ♪ my last breath ♪ 864 00:45:38,236 --> 00:45:39,779 ♪ Oh, oh ♪ 865 00:45:39,863 --> 00:45:42,824 ♪ Woe is me ♪ 866 00:45:42,907 --> 00:45:46,369 ♪ The last time that you touched me ♪ 867 00:45:47,412 --> 00:45:49,122 ♪ Oh, will wonders ♪ 868 00:45:49,205 --> 00:45:51,749 ♪ ever cease? ♪ 869 00:45:51,833 --> 00:45:53,084 ♪ Blessed be ♪ 870 00:45:53,168 --> 00:45:56,045 ♪ the mystery ♪ 871 00:45:56,129 --> 00:45:58,131 ♪ of love ♪ ♪ 872 00:46:16,441 --> 00:46:18,067 Come in. 873 00:46:24,032 --> 00:46:25,617 - Hey… - Can you take your shoes off? 874 00:46:25,700 --> 00:46:27,660 I'm gonna be here for, like, a sec. 875 00:46:27,744 --> 00:46:29,454 I was just on my way in and… 876 00:46:29,537 --> 00:46:31,789 Came to rub it my face that I got fired on day one? 877 00:46:31,873 --> 00:46:34,292 No, jerk, I wanted to see how your friend's doing. 878 00:46:34,375 --> 00:46:36,586 Yeah, he's gonna be okay. Thanks. 879 00:46:36,669 --> 00:46:38,213 Good. 880 00:46:38,296 --> 00:46:40,924 - Okay, this is for you. - Thank you. 881 00:46:41,007 --> 00:46:45,303 You're welcome. Um… 882 00:46:45,386 --> 00:46:49,766 So, look, um, about yesterday. 883 00:46:49,849 --> 00:46:52,644 - I mean, we all know Namazy's a hard-ass… - I'm fine. 884 00:46:53,728 --> 00:46:56,940 C-Cool. Uh, that's, uh… 885 00:46:57,023 --> 00:47:00,652 Actually, I was gonna say, "but she kind of has a point." 886 00:47:01,694 --> 00:47:02,737 Oh. 887 00:47:02,820 --> 00:47:05,448 I mean, look, you know I always tell you the truth, right? 888 00:47:05,532 --> 00:47:09,452 And the truth is that you're smart as hell, obviously, 889 00:47:09,536 --> 00:47:11,913 but you need to pay more attention to your feelings. 890 00:47:11,996 --> 00:47:13,331 Excuse me? 891 00:47:13,414 --> 00:47:16,584 Well, you can deny your emotions all you want, 892 00:47:16,668 --> 00:47:18,294 they're not going anywhere. 893 00:47:19,337 --> 00:47:22,799 And as long as you're afraid to face them, 894 00:47:22,882 --> 00:47:25,552 they'll run you and not the other way around. 895 00:47:29,931 --> 00:47:32,433 "Hello" would've been nice. 896 00:47:32,517 --> 00:47:33,726 Hello. 897 00:47:36,062 --> 00:47:38,189 Steven? You ready for a visitor? 898 00:47:38,273 --> 00:47:39,399 - Hi. - Oh, you're awake. 899 00:47:39,482 --> 00:47:41,025 Oh, hey… ow. 900 00:47:41,109 --> 00:47:43,695 - Ow. Ow. Easy. - Careful of his ribs. 901 00:47:43,778 --> 00:47:45,697 No, no, break another one, why don't you? 902 00:47:45,780 --> 00:47:48,074 - It's barely cracked, you baby. - Ow. 903 00:47:48,157 --> 00:47:50,952 How's, uh, how's Mom and Dad? 904 00:47:51,035 --> 00:47:52,412 - Where are they? - They're on their way. 905 00:47:52,495 --> 00:47:54,497 Hey. 906 00:47:57,959 --> 00:47:59,836 Uh, hi. 907 00:47:59,919 --> 00:48:01,963 I'm gonna give you two a minute. 908 00:48:02,046 --> 00:48:04,257 I'm glad you're alive. 909 00:48:08,303 --> 00:48:10,513 You scared the shit out of everyone. 910 00:48:10,597 --> 00:48:12,473 You know that? Belly was worried to death. 911 00:48:12,557 --> 00:48:15,143 I knew you were just being a drama queen, obviously. 912 00:48:15,226 --> 00:48:17,895 I was in a coma, so… 913 00:48:17,979 --> 00:48:21,733 Yeah, but medically induced. 914 00:48:21,816 --> 00:48:23,234 Uh-huh. 915 00:48:26,154 --> 00:48:27,614 Steven, I'm joking. 916 00:48:27,697 --> 00:48:29,616 I was worried about you, too, obviously. 917 00:48:29,699 --> 00:48:31,159 Yeah, yeah, you know, I've been thinking a lot 918 00:48:31,242 --> 00:48:33,620 about what you said since I woke up. 919 00:48:33,703 --> 00:48:34,704 You know, before the crash… 920 00:48:34,787 --> 00:48:36,789 - Me, too. - …and you were right. 921 00:48:38,791 --> 00:48:41,169 You and me, we don't work. 922 00:48:42,754 --> 00:48:44,172 What? 923 00:48:47,383 --> 00:48:51,137 If we, uh, never ran into each other that day in New York, 924 00:48:51,220 --> 00:48:53,389 we would've just gone about our lives and-and been fine, 925 00:48:53,473 --> 00:48:55,808 so let's just pretend we didn't. 926 00:49:00,188 --> 00:49:03,816 I've never been able to think clearly when it comes to you, Tay. 927 00:49:06,653 --> 00:49:08,071 I couldn't let you go. 928 00:49:09,155 --> 00:49:12,158 You know I love a challenge, but… 929 00:49:15,078 --> 00:49:17,413 …this is a wake-up call. 930 00:49:17,497 --> 00:49:19,666 You were right. 931 00:49:19,749 --> 00:49:22,377 You and me, we don't work. 932 00:49:25,838 --> 00:49:28,549 Good, then we're on the same page. 933 00:49:28,633 --> 00:49:31,427 - Yeah, yeah. Finally. - I'm gonna go find Belly. 934 00:49:42,021 --> 00:49:44,273 First loves are important. 935 00:49:44,357 --> 00:49:45,900 Conrad was mine. 936 00:49:45,983 --> 00:49:49,320 For the rest of my life, I would think of him fondly, 937 00:49:49,404 --> 00:49:53,366 the way you do your first pet, the first car you drove. 938 00:49:55,159 --> 00:49:58,204 But they're not as important as lasts. 939 00:50:09,549 --> 00:50:12,135 Steven's gonna be okay. 940 00:50:12,218 --> 00:50:14,053 Oh, thank God. 941 00:50:18,015 --> 00:50:21,185 Do you want to get some air? 942 00:50:22,937 --> 00:50:24,981 Yeah. Yeah, I would love that. 943 00:50:29,736 --> 00:50:33,781 I was… I am so mad at you. 944 00:50:33,865 --> 00:50:36,075 And you have every right to be. 945 00:50:36,159 --> 00:50:39,370 I'm sorry for what I did to you, and I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner. 946 00:50:39,454 --> 00:50:42,498 I'm sorry you found out the worst way possible. 947 00:50:42,582 --> 00:50:45,626 I know it's-it's gonna take a lot of work for you 948 00:50:45,710 --> 00:50:47,712 to even begin to trust me again, but I am willing 949 00:50:47,795 --> 00:50:50,798 to do whatever it takes if you let me. 950 00:50:54,343 --> 00:50:56,345 I'm sorry, too. 951 00:50:57,555 --> 00:50:59,307 Sorry for what? 952 00:51:01,309 --> 00:51:06,189 I'm sorry for everything leading up to that fight. 953 00:51:06,272 --> 00:51:08,107 And to Cabo. 954 00:51:10,443 --> 00:51:14,739 I can see how you thought we were broken up. 955 00:51:14,822 --> 00:51:16,240 You can? 956 00:51:17,241 --> 00:51:20,411 Yeah, but I-I don't understand how you could just 957 00:51:20,495 --> 00:51:22,914 move on to somebody else so easily. 958 00:51:22,997 --> 00:51:25,416 I mean, I could barely function. 959 00:51:25,500 --> 00:51:28,294 H-How were you okay enough to have sex with someone? 960 00:51:28,377 --> 00:51:30,880 No, Belly, I was completely numb that whole week. 961 00:51:30,963 --> 00:51:34,008 I-I didn't even feel like I was there when Lacie and I… 962 00:51:34,091 --> 00:51:35,510 when we had sex. 963 00:51:36,928 --> 00:51:39,388 After, I-I just sat in the shower 964 00:51:39,472 --> 00:51:43,267 and cried for, I don't, I don't even know how long. 965 00:51:43,351 --> 00:51:47,939 Just thinking, how could I deserve you after that? 966 00:51:50,149 --> 00:51:52,527 Maybe we… 967 00:51:52,610 --> 00:51:56,072 shouldn't let one mistake erase all these years. 968 00:51:58,074 --> 00:52:00,076 I mean, 969 00:52:00,159 --> 00:52:03,204 if we both believe that what we have 970 00:52:03,287 --> 00:52:06,958 is bigger than our mistakes, then… 971 00:52:07,041 --> 00:52:09,794 maybe we can just start over. 972 00:52:09,877 --> 00:52:12,296 I want that, Bells. 973 00:52:12,380 --> 00:52:14,340 I-I want that so much. 974 00:52:15,633 --> 00:52:18,052 You can't ever hurt me like that again. 975 00:52:18,135 --> 00:52:20,221 I promise. 976 00:52:23,432 --> 00:52:25,142 I promise. 977 00:52:38,114 --> 00:52:41,409 I don't want to mess this up again. 978 00:52:41,492 --> 00:52:42,827 We won't. 979 00:52:42,910 --> 00:52:44,954 - * I started driving… - After Steven, 980 00:52:45,037 --> 00:52:46,914 I-I get it now. 981 00:52:46,998 --> 00:52:48,791 You know, life's too short 982 00:52:48,875 --> 00:52:50,793 not to spend it with the person that you love. 983 00:52:50,877 --> 00:52:52,962 ♪ The way it felt for me to finally hold you… 984 00:52:53,045 --> 00:52:57,049 I want to be with you always, no matter what. 985 00:52:57,133 --> 00:52:59,385 I just can't imagine my life without you. 986 00:52:59,468 --> 00:53:01,387 Me, either. 987 00:53:01,470 --> 00:53:03,431 Belly, it's always been our story. 988 00:53:03,514 --> 00:53:06,726 Yours and mine. Nobody else's. 989 00:53:10,479 --> 00:53:12,148 What are you thinking? 990 00:53:13,774 --> 00:53:16,277 Just, the future is-is crazy… 991 00:53:16,360 --> 00:53:17,945 Come on, what? Say it. 992 00:53:20,948 --> 00:53:23,117 - Would you… - Yes. 993 00:53:23,200 --> 00:53:25,620 You don't even know what I'm about to say. 994 00:53:27,413 --> 00:53:29,790 Try me. 995 00:53:29,874 --> 00:53:33,586 ♪ These butterflies lived… 996 00:53:33,669 --> 00:53:34,795 Isabel Conklin… 997 00:53:36,631 --> 00:53:37,965 …will you marry me? 998 00:53:38,049 --> 00:53:39,717 Yes. 999 00:53:39,800 --> 00:53:42,136 Yeah, I'll marry you. 1000 00:53:42,219 --> 00:53:44,513 ♪ I swear I've known you ♪ 1001 00:53:44,597 --> 00:53:47,516 ♪ longer than ♪ 1002 00:53:47,600 --> 00:53:50,686 ♪ forever… 1003 00:53:51,729 --> 00:53:53,022 I love you. 1004 00:53:53,105 --> 00:53:55,566 I love you, too. 1005 00:53:56,609 --> 00:53:59,528 ♪ A day ♪ 1006 00:53:59,612 --> 00:54:02,907 ♪ Forever ♪ 1007 00:54:02,990 --> 00:54:05,368 ♪ and a day ♪ 1008 00:54:05,451 --> 00:54:08,287 ♪ Forever and a day ♪ 1009 00:54:08,371 --> 00:54:09,914 ♪ A day ♪ 1010 00:54:09,997 --> 00:54:12,750 ♪ Forever and a day ♪ 1011 00:54:18,297 --> 00:54:21,509 ♪ I bet we already knew our names ♪ 1012 00:54:21,592 --> 00:54:24,387 ♪ before we met each other ♪ 1013 00:54:24,470 --> 00:54:27,390 ♪ I bet we've sailed the Milky Way ♪ 1014 00:54:27,473 --> 00:54:30,059 ♪ walked on the sun together ♪ 1015 00:54:30,142 --> 00:54:33,938 ♪ How could I forget ♪ 1016 00:54:34,021 --> 00:54:38,526 ♪ those emerald eyes? ♪ 1017 00:54:38,609 --> 00:54:40,903 ♪ They took me by surprise ♪ 1018 00:54:40,987 --> 00:54:44,031 ♪ But suddenly, I missed your face ♪ 1019 00:54:44,115 --> 00:54:47,493 ♪ I knew that smile from miles away ♪ 1020 00:54:47,576 --> 00:54:50,788 ♪ I knew that I have loved you ♪ 1021 00:54:50,871 --> 00:54:56,544 ♪ forever… ♪ 1022 00:54:56,627 --> 00:54:59,505 ♪ and a day ♪ 1023 00:54:59,588 --> 00:55:02,508 ♪ A day ♪ 1024 00:55:02,591 --> 00:55:05,177 ♪ In all my lives ♪ 1025 00:55:05,261 --> 00:55:07,722 ♪ I've waited every time ♪ 1026 00:55:07,805 --> 00:55:11,392 ♪ to hear you say ♪ 1027 00:55:11,475 --> 00:55:15,646 ♪ "I'm yours forever and a day" ♪ 1028 00:55:27,825 --> 00:55:30,661 ♪ I don't believe ♪ 1029 00:55:30,745 --> 00:55:33,664 ♪ in destiny ♪ 1030 00:55:33,748 --> 00:55:35,833 ♪ But I might ♪ 1031 00:55:35,916 --> 00:55:39,670 ♪ have to say ♪ 1032 00:55:39,754 --> 00:55:43,174 ♪ your melodies ♪ 1033 00:55:43,257 --> 00:55:45,718 ♪ they're changing me ♪ 1034 00:55:45,801 --> 00:55:47,344 ♪ I'm yours ♪ 1035 00:55:47,428 --> 00:55:52,058 ♪ forever ♪ ♪